Tuesday, January 12, 2010

What I can Offer. . .

1. I am caring
2. I will protect you
3. Naturally good smile
4. Cute
5. I can cook and bake
6. I am skinny
7. I am a runner
8. I am healthy
9. I am Devout
10. I always love first
11. I am playful
12. I love Board games
13. I am always be up for a game of scrabble
14. I don't like to be inside for long periods of time
15. But I could spend all day with you in bed
16. I love being the little spoon, but I am not afraid of versatility
17. I can dance
18. I love to wrestle
19. I will always be there for you
20. I don't believe in lying
21. I don't drink often
22. I am drug free and always plan on being ( I don't even like pain pills)
23. I love your arms around me
24. I love to kiss
25. I get turned on by turning on others
26. I have been told I am the best at blow jobs
27. I will always want to be with you
28. I will be happy every time I receive a text from you
29. I love the snow
30. I am not afraid to "get down and dirty"
31. I have a lot of friends
32. I have a loving family
33. I like dogs not cats
34. I am a good listener
35. I have a big heart
36. I don't play video games
37. I will always take care of you
38. I love the rain
39. I am a fairly good photographer
40. I don't have a lot of sexual experience
41. I love the outdoors
42. If I don't become a doctor I want to be a high school teacher
43. I am a nerd
44. I have some fashion sense
45. I always believe that things will get better
46. I believe in love
47. I will always want to fall asleep with my head on your chest
48. I have a dildo
49. I am afraid to be vulnerable
50. I will always think of you

All I want

All I want from you is your honesty. Your devotion. And your love. Three simple things that make my world go round. When the time is right I will love you. I will be there for you. I will never judge you. I am simply a shoulder for you to cry on, an ear to listen about your day and your stories, and arms to hold you. I am yours and you are mine. We are each others.

My dream...

In the morning we wake up in each others arms. Tangled. You whisper you love me and kiss me passionately. We never want to leave the bed. But we must. I make you breakfast as you feed our children and our dog. When its my turn to take the kids to school you hold me and kiss and you never want to let go. When we are at work I look down at the picture of us on the beach. We have on content faces as your arms drape over my shoulders. Encased in that black frame is us in love.

When we are all at home, you begin to cook dinner as I go for my run. When I am done and exhausted I go shower but not alone. You join me. You kiss my neck and squeeze me close.


We have the delicious dinner you made. Watch a movie with the kids. Tuck them in and read them one of the many children's books we have amassed over the years.

We crawl into our oversized bed together. You pull me close and I put my head on your chest. I listen to the thumpa thumpa of your heart beat as we both drift off into a content sleep.

This goes on for years. We share Christmases and birthdays and endless nights of love. We witness our children grow and find families of their own, making ours even bigger and even more full of love. When we die we die with peace knowing that we loved and loved entirely. Living our lives how we wanted them to be lived. Thank you for your love.

Hope

"Our scars become our beauty marks"- Gianluca

One of my dear friends said this to me one day. I thought it was Beautiful and very telling. I wanted to share it with anyone who bothers to read me.

I want this quote to be true. I want the things that shape us, that change us, that make us who we truly are to be our defining traits. Our trails and tribulations make the scars, give us experiences and ultimately change our perspectives. Though they may for a majority be the very things that we hate about our self I am certain that the one person we were meant to love and who was meant to love us will adore the scars we have and see them as merely apart of us entirely. When you find someone like this, who accepts you entirely not someone who glosses over your character but embraces you and loves you for you marry them. That is true love. Unequivocally. Love like that can not be faked. Meaning it must be true, true as anything else in the world. I believe that just as there is great evil in the world or terrible events that take place I do still believe that love prevails. This hope is something I stand by. I believe we are all meant to do something, whether it be curing a disease, fixing a wrong, cleaning your conscience. There is always something beautiful to behold.